MotherHood

Happy Saturday my fellow readers! Today I wanted to talk about What’s Next? What’s Next on my agenda as I switch gears for just a second,  is Motherhood. I became a Mom 09-29-2020, it was the best day of my life. So much was going on in my hospital room. I was in shock I was even having a baby. Something I had prayed for finally came to pass. To be honest it’s been a huge learning experience. Putting someone else’s needs before mines. Being reasonable for someone else’s life. Making sure I’m doing the right thing with the guidance of GOD. Trying to find balance between my life, being a wife and a mother. I’m not going to lie it’s hard work. Sometimes I get overwhelmed. Sometimes I miss the mark with spending with my husband. The biggest thing is,  I miss working. At the same time, in my mind nobody can take care of Wynter like I can or like her dad. This world is so cruel and I don’t want anything bad happening to her. This is what I think about. Again I go back and fourth with his, it’s a fear that’s got me bad. The spiritual side of me says she’ll be okay. I know I should pray for her, and let her go and trust that GOD is always with her and his angels, but I’m so nervous.

I remember after having Wynter a lot of things went down dealing with my health. I thought my faith would always be test with other things in life. I had no idea it would be test after giving birth. I had Pre-eclampsia after birth. I was so scared. Fear made one of the happiest days of my life become the worst. I couldn’t even enjoy my baby girl because i was worried about my health and what was going on. I couldn’t get pass the events to even pray. So what did I do, I called grandma and daddy. Of course my praying grandma and grandaddy came through. I got the strength to keep pushing and no matter what went on, I knew I was okay. Motherhood doesn’t come with a manual. You can read all you want on the topic, but books doesn’t prepare you.

Am I the only person who puts hubby last during these time and sometimes still do? Not to be mean but I feel like we must take care of our daughter. Then worry about us. I’m not going to lie, I definitely miss the mark on quality time. I definitely need balance but I’m still learning. Guess what because it’s my heart desires to find balance GOD will have it come to pass. The GOD I serve has never let me down. Through all this , my ups and my downs, I still glorify him.

I would love to hear some advice on balance. Maybe we talk about balance in my next blog!

LORD I thank you. Father I thank you because balance is coming. I thank you for giving Aaron and myself the blue print to raise Wynter . Father I thank you for strength that you give us everyday. Father I ask that I can always fine balance in my life. I ask for strength as I continue to be a mom, a wife and just Me. I just thank you for blessing me with a baby girl . I ask for patience as we potty train her. I thank you for compassion skills and understanding skills. Father I ask that you continue to bless my family. Lord bless the readers. Bless the new and old Moms. I ask that you bless our Whats Next phase. I thank you, I give you the glory, honor and praise you in Jesus name I pray amen.